Satisfaction

Seriously I haven't updated since October 22, good thing my blog isn't ever read by anyone other than me or else, someone might've assumed that I had died. In case you secretly do read this, I'm alive. I can see the relief now. :)

Life sure has a way of pulling you to and from a place and then leaving you to feel as if you were upside down. No question about it, in my life there are struggles. Constant struggles. Struggles with health, with desire to be focused on God, with being diligent in my work, struggles to love others.
That list could drone on and on, so I'll stop.

I often feel as if I am such a failure in every area of my life. I fail to study the Word, I fail to love others, even those that I really do love, I fail in being a diligent worker, I fail to pray for those that I should be praying for, I fail to reach out to those in need.

Thankfully though, even in my struggles, even in my failures, my God has never failed me. He is faithful, loving, merciful, and gracious. He knows where the sin is in my life. He knows what a hypocrite I am. He knows what desires are in my heart. He knows when I battle hatefulness. He knows that I need Him. He doesn't let go.

Even in this time of struggle, when I choose myself first, He has yet to let go. Not only that, but He is drawing me back to Him; from the darkness, the unforgiveness, the bitterness in my life. His love is pulling me to Him, gently reminding me that He is my rock, He is my fortress, He is my strength. Reminding me that He alone loves me, He is my savior, my friend, my father. He alone is Wisdom, nothing here can surpass Him. He alone is God, nothing else will satisfy.

Jesus, Hope of the Nations
Jesus, Comfort for all who mourn
You are the Source of Heaven's hope on Earth

Jesus, Light in the Darkness
Jesus, Truth in each circumstance
You are the Source of Heaven's light on Earth

In history You lived and died
You broke the chains
You rose to life

You are the Hope

Living in Us

You are the Rock

In whom we trust

You are light
Shining for all the world to see

YOu rose from the dead
Conquering fear
Our prince of peace
Drawing us near

Jesus our hope
Living for all who will recieve
Lord we believe
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