Well I've been home for a week now and have done a few interesting things, but mostly it's just been the regular "I'm home, gotta get caught up" business. Doctor's visits, sleeping, walmart visits, eating at all your favorite places - those of you who are just home for a while know exactly what I'm talking about.
Here's the list of all I've done so far:
~I've gone with my grandmother to get a pedicure (she also got her fingernails done and her hair did that day) and that evening we went to visit with my great aunt Audrey.
~Spent a great day with CB and Amanda in Memphis - we went downtown to some sidewalk sales, found a great coffee shop, to the farmer's market, to the flea market, and then that night to the Roller Derby.
~Yesterday was church, I always love coming home to FBC WM. The people are great and God is really at work there.
I'm a little sad because I'll be away from home for two weeks and it feels like my summer is slipping away from me. I usually don't feel this way, but I'm feeling it now. I'll be going to Orlando for a class, everyone says ooh you're suffering for Jesus, but I'm not really thrilled about being there for a week, alone. I hope that I can learn alot and will be prepared to teach AP Biology next year. I'm kind of scared to teach this upper level class, but I trust that God knows what He's doing with my life. The best part of this trip is that when the class is over, I get to go stay with my brother and sister-in-law for a few more days. That will be fun. We plan to go to SeaWorld and I think the beach, so that should be fun. I'm excited to see them, so that part of the trip I will enjoy.
I am also considering joining my church on a mission trip to Nebraska, which happens after I return from Florida. I haven't agreed to go, but I'm feeling the tug. The group will be doing Backyard Bible Clubs and other things, I think it will be fun. I haven't done that kind of ministry in a while and it would be good to get to my roots. My only hang up is that my summers seem to be getting shorter and shorter and I'm getting less time to be with my friends and family. Knowing that I'll be away from here for two weeks and thinking of possibly being gone for one more week really hurts, but I still feel the pull to go. I guess this is what it is to sacrifice. I'm not sure yet, but if you read this and pray for me, pray that I will have clear direction and that in whatever I choose that God will give me peace about it. Right now I don't feel peace either way - going or staying here.
I'm so anxious right now, anxious about this class, anxious about whether or not I should go to Nebraska, anxious about life. I don't know when I got to be this way, always worried and anxious, but I'm sitting here stressing and it's not necessary. Like Mr. Miller always tells me, "Kristen! It's gonna be okay, everything is going to be fine. Quit worrying!"
I think the real issue is that I need to get into the word and I need to start with my favorite verse, Psalm 94:19 "When my anxious thoughts multiply within me Your consolations delight my soul."
Doing a quick verse search using the word anxious I came across these that I need to be dwelling on.
Psalm 139:23 "Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts."
Proverbs 12:25 "An anxious heart weighs a man down, but a kind word cheers him up."
Ecclesiastes 2:22 "What does a man get for all the toil and anxious striving with which he does under the sun?"
Phillipians 4:6 "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God."
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