Unity...

Today my heart is sad. For several reasons, but primarily this one - the church that I have been blessed to be a part of here in Korea, seems to be shrinking. Looking out over the crowd, it felt so empty. To those who were here all summer, it seemed full, but leading worship sure has a different feel, when the pews (in our case the chairs) are full.
After thinking about this, I realize part of this is my fault. I've neglected, for my own comfort, different types of outreach into this community. I rely on others to do that. I use the excuses of I don't speak the language or I'm too busy. This is ridiculous. I'm not to busy to spend hours on facebook or do other mind numbing activities. I'm not too busy to let my mind worry and fret over things that I have no control over.
What can I do? It's obvious our church has holes that need to be filled. I think I do all that I can, but that's not true. I'm not ready at every turn to invite new people I meet to church, frankly I use my "shy/akward" nature as an excuse for not reaching out to those in this community. It makes me nervous to approach people and I let my nervousness have control.
When am I going to grow up and use the power of Christ within me to do what I'm scared to do?

Two songs give me the reminder that my courage and abilities are worthless without His power and guidance. If He reigns in me ("Lord, reign in me, reign in your power" :Lord Reign In Me - Benton Brown) then I can be victorious in my weakness. ("We are victorious, victorious, We stand for you, You stand for us, we overcome!" : Victorious - Christ's Covenant Church)

Lord, Your word makes it clear that Your power is made perfect in my weakness. Help me to rely on that power to do what I perceive as difficult.