Fighting!

When it sets in, it is so hard to shake. Maybe you've been there, maybe you are there now... in that state of discouragement that just seems to get deeper and deeper. That's what the last few weeks have been like for me.
It started slowly, but it's raveled into this pit of discouragement, that I can't seem to escape.
Frustrations and disappointments become distractions, my focus is lost, I get mad at myself for letting it get to this point. More disappointments and frustrations pile on, I should be able to push through, but I have no strength. Lower and lower I go.
I try to talk to a friend about it, but it just sounds stupid that I've gotten this way. I try to get into the Word and regain my focus. I fail. I half heartedly ask for help. Nothing is working. I listen to music that usually encourages, I try getting more sleep, all to no avail. This morning, I pray before the day begins, that I can get out of this funk, that my mind will be focused on Eternal things. On to devotions at school, a great reminder that God has plans for me, I don't need to be frustrated with my life. Then, more discouragement. I talk to my mom, she says don't let it take hold. This is a tool of Satan to throw you off. She says, let's pray. I cry. She says, don't dwell, just praise Him. The day rolls on and there is more discouragement. I feel like a failure. I make it through the end of the day. Someone makes me smile, it takes my mind off the discouragement for a bit. I go to basketball practice, the girls make me smile. Dinner time, then time alone where that darkness is lurking behind me waiting to pounce. What I do?
It's time... It's time to fight. I've been carrying on too long. I do have someone to talk to, the thing is He already knows why I hurt, He knows my struggles, He knows my failures. Yet He waits patiently for me to realize that He's the fighter, He always has been, He always will be. He's kind of like that friend of mine who took up for me and punched another guy in the face, when I was being harassed.  I need to go to Him, let Him do the fighting, clearly I can't do it myself. I need wait patiently for Him to fight, I need to trust that He's got it under control.
This passage in Exodus says it all, '"Moses answered the people, “Don’t be afraid! Stand still, and see what the Lord will do to save you today. You will never see these Egyptians again. The Lord is fighting for you! So be still!”'
What a reminder! These times will come, but I have to make the choice, the choice to be still and let Him fight for me. To stop trying to do it myself. To go to Him and find my rest. Like in Hebrews 4: 11 - 12.

This song is an encouraging reminder of Who is really fighting for me. He's fighting for You, too.